yeahitsLiFE.

The past ten months have been so life changing for me. I thank God for every single day. The good days, the bad days and all in-between days.

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White - Frank Ocean 

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1 DO BETTER !
I need to “do better” for myself. Try harder an put more EFFORT instead of just letting life coast by. I want to do better not only for myself but for others. Whether that may be someone in my family, a friend or a complete stranger. Everyone deserves better.

2. LET GO !
It’s been long over due. I’ve been holding on to the hurt, anger, memories and so on for far too long now. It’s time to just let it all go. No more holding grudges. No more holding in anger, frustration and old memories. It’s time to GROW up and MOVE on. Who cares about yesterday when we have today to think about. I can’t expect to have a positive future when I’m still clinging on to a negative past.

3. WANT MORE !
It’s okay for me to want more for myself. It’s not an selfish act at all. If I have more than the people around me will have more. I’m more than willing to share and help those that I can, while I can. Theres just so much to explore in life and I SHOULD want to. I don’t want to be stuck in the same routine forever.

I’m a MUCH happier person than I was last year. So grateful for God not giving up on me.

January:
Started dating an exboyfriend.
February:
Nothing great happened.
March:
I turned 21 and had the best birthday month celebration ever in life.
April:
Some great things happened else where.
May:
The relationship was on a steady downfall and yet I still was making plans to move back home. My mommy got married.
June:
Relationship ended. I cried like the biggest baby ever. We had an epic night in Lafayette. I met my new friend. I started writing again.
July:
Didn’t move home. Started researching military careers.
August:
Started talking to my exbf again. Made some terrible mistakes. Had an overly epic weekend in new orleans. Got kicked out of one house and moved into the other. Became a godmother again to the most wonderful kid.
September:
Stopped talking to exbf for good. Met with recruiter in the air force.
October:
Holloween was awesome.
November:
Passed my asvab. Had a wonderful thanksgiving.
December:
Enlisted into the united states air force. Had a great Christmas.

My last post on here was like a month or so ago. I read it and maybe a week later I deleted it. I realized how stupid I was for even thinking that way and how stupid I looked for posting it. But at the time I was angry and instead of saying it to the person, I said it here. Where I thought no one would even pay attention to it but someone did read and made a comment about it. Their comment was absolutely right. It’s crazy to sit here and worry myself over something I can not control or change. I’m definitely not worried about it anymore and I’m glad I’m realizing what’s important to me. That little issue isn’t important and it never should be. Life right now for me is too great and I cant wait for it to be GREATER.

For once in my life, I finally feel like I’ve done something right.

Today has been such a disappointment. Life fucking sucks the most right now.